About two times a week I’m asked about my PTSD, what happened, or what my symptoms feel like. It was once a bit troubling, because if I didn’t reply, I felt like the perception was that I wasn’t interested in sharing, or worse that I was being elusive and secretive about my life experience. What people didn’t often realize was that retelling my story or preparing myself to share some piece of it triggered me terribly. Other times I could completely detach from my emotional state and just puke some elements of my story out without any sense of emotional connection to the story at all. The worst, and most offensive queries were from unskilled medical and practitioners. When I was first seeking out treatment, I was repeatedly asked to share “what happened” and the details of the traumatic events. If I didn’t reply with the type of details they requested I felt like I wasn’t sharing the depths of the symptoms I experienced, if it did fully reply I could watch these folks crush under the weight of the horrors that I shared. I was lucky to find myself under the care of one phenomenal psychiatrist who truly understood what I was going through. She helped me get treatment and continues to support me in my after care.Tags: Trauma, PTSD, C-PTSD, complex PTSD, Symptoms <BR/> Read More
I can’t really imagine anything that would be scarier than sleeping beside a 200 pound, 6 foot two C-PTSD survivor while he’s having night terrors.
For the better part of a decade I’ve known better than to sleep side by each with my partner. I can have terrors in my sleep that have me flail from one side of the bed to the other. I can awake from a dream completely disoriented and confused, ready for horrific things to happen.Tags: nightmares, Homewood Health Care, blood pressure <BR/> Read More